I've got it bad! Lately it seems like A LOT of women I know are about to or have recently given birth. I am ecstatic for them (really I am), but each time I say congratulations, there's a little voice in my heart that reminds me, that will never be me again. I know a lot of people would say that I am crazy for feeling that way, and seven years ago when I agreed to shutting down the baby factory I probably would have agreed with them. But I had no idea that I would ache to hold another newborn. I beat myself up for this, because I know there are women out there who would give their right arm for one child, let alone the seven beautiful, healthy babies that I have been blessed with.
Dh reminds me that someday I have grandchildren to look forward to (please GOD let that be a loooong way off!) so until they come along I am just gonna baby my kids, whether they like it or not!